I can no longer look at her work with joy
All these wonderful examples of affection on display
Though rarely from the actual person herself
She talks of wanting certain characters
Draws very intermit artwork
Draws very hardcore scenes
Yet I realised that they weren't an interest
Weren't a deep set, locked away curiosity
They are fantasies. Fantasies to keep that kind of world a fantasy. So she never has to deal with them in reality
I wonder if she realises how much I end up comparing myself to them
I even tried to change, I told myself I wanted to get fitter, when really it was so she might just grow a little more interested in me.
I can no longer look at her work with joy
All these wonderful examples of affection on display
Though rarely from the actual person herself
She talks of wanting certain characters
Draws very intermit artwork
Draws very hardcore scenes
Yet I realised that they weren't an interest
Weren't a deep set, locked away curiosity
They are fantasies. Fantasies to keep that kind of world a fantasy. So she never has to deal with them in reality
I wonder if she realises how much I end up comparing myself to them
I even tried to change, I told myself I wanted to get fitter, when really it was so she might just grow a little more interested in me.